i'm scared

i don't know what to do. so, i have the gut to tell BM about SS. now, let's just hope. he will wanted this. i love you BM. i sure do. you're really like my brother. what will i do if there is no you in my life? i was the one who's got lose in the darkness of life. and you were like the torch that keeps me in the safe place far away from the evil.

i love my fairies too. Aesha and Eah and Uun and Peejoy. :') they never left by my side when i need them like the night before. i was so amazed by them. they are really really my BESTFRIEND! it would be nice if Megan there all along too. but, i just can't forget what she has done. they can me laughed they never let me cry. that's why i' so scared if they sad. :') i love fourth of you yes I do.

i know i should love my family. but, they doesn't know me like BM, Aesha, Eah, Uun and Peejoy. they will always tried to make me feel better. :') how can i live without those five? BM may at KL. but, i don't mind. i still love him. funny to said. yeah, i kinda love him. i want to stay with you guys forever and never ever met someone else. i'm scared i will forget you guys and the new-people are much too different from you guys. i don't mind if you guys doesn't feel the same way. the way you guys cared about me is enough. i would never asked for more.

you guys are the most people I love in my heart. yes, top 5, i guess. again. i wanna live with you guys forever. :*

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

until the next post. i'm so seriously crying wrote this whole thing down. :')

sincerely pais