love you till the end \./

i can't take this. this isn't real! oh my god. what thing that i have to do if that one day come? he's with someone else? pls tell me. i'm hopeless. i can't find any way to get through this. do i have to confess to him? what if it turns out not the way like monkey? if it's do. then what will happen next? i write this because i can't take this anymore. do i really really feel the love? is this the consequences of saying to eric that i wanted to be loyal? loyal to lorax? seriously??

because day by day, IT DOESN'T LOOK REAL! seems more like a dream! yeah,
" i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they understand. " *nangis

Yeah, exactly! he's chinese! while i'm malay. we will be seriously going to be pray never be together. OH GOD! PLSSSSSSS! i want him but i just can't see how can i be with him? there's so many boundaries. how can i tell him how i feel? we're so close from close we thought. it's weird. SO WEIRD!

whenever i see him, i just wanted to runaway and hide. oh come on, i see him everyday! like it wasn't fate, it's planned. ahhh, he's group one same as me! what do i expect? lol, i should quit prefects if like this. this is too much D:

well, i wanted to tell you that " I LOVE YOU TILL THE END " xx