love you till the end \./

i can't take this. this isn't real! oh my god. what thing that i have to do if that one day come? he's with someone else? pls tell me. i'm hopeless. i can't find any way to get through this. do i have to confess to him? what if it turns out not the way like monkey? if it's do. then what will happen next? i write this because i can't take this anymore. do i really really feel the love? is this the consequences of saying to eric that i wanted to be loyal? loyal to lorax? seriously??

because day by day, IT DOESN'T LOOK REAL! seems more like a dream! yeah,
" i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they understand. " *nangis

Yeah, exactly! he's chinese! while i'm malay. we will be seriously going to be pray never be together. OH GOD! PLSSSSSSS! i want him but i just can't see how can i be with him? there's so many boundaries. how can i tell him how i feel? we're so close from close we thought. it's weird. SO WEIRD!

whenever i see him, i just wanted to runaway and hide. oh come on, i see him everyday! like it wasn't fate, it's planned. ahhh, he's group one same as me! what do i expect? lol, i should quit prefects if like this. this is too much D:

well, i wanted to tell you that " I LOVE YOU TILL THE END " xx

my weak, weak heart.

hello,

how you guys doing? well, i say these days it isn't a very much good days for me. it is weird to be handling this feelings over and over. i mean, i am sure that i forgotten about him all along. and fyi, this is NOT the same guy i was talking in previous post. why? ohhh both of them is a jerk. i don't like them. nah, regret? yes, that's how i feel right this moment. but who cares anyway? i don't love him anymore. *senyum senget*

so, where am i? oh! handling a feeling. yup, let me get you straight. I, who is ever like this guy ONCE turns out that now im so head over heels for him. WHY? W-H-Y? ohh why.. i wish i knew. but i can tell you when and how..

WHEN? 31th December 2012.
HOW? At Popular. Just one single eyes to eyes. weird.

So this is what people say LOVE IS BLIND? Since that day, i have been looking forward to see him anywhere. so the shortcut to tell you guys is I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH HIM! like seriously serious. how can i save myself from all of these? he's chinese! won't there will be problem if we were together? OMG, pls help me. i thought i am not in love with him, just having crush and stuff. but you know what it is MORE THAN THAT! i mean, come on. You get me right? i'm not being racist. i love him :p

SEE?! what did I told you?

okayyyy this is scary.H-E-L-P! SOS.

I'm sleepy. Goodnight, grenades xx