ohh kayy

i'm sleepy maybe i'll tell you guys about amy tomorrow. lol it's a draft already kbye

dugaan.

 Ollo? k testing testing. *cough cough*

Hehe, dibuka bicara post ini di blogspot saya dgn ollo. k apa khabar. aku merapu sebab aku tak tau nak intro lagu mana so hentam saja la!! aku ada banyak cerita hari niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :D <-- bahagia giler pulak bnyi. hehe takde arr. mcm mcm hal happened today you know? guess what?

AKU DAH OKAY BALIK DENGAN BESTFRIEND AKU <3 

okay, gumbira hati si gadis kuning langsat lol. mcm mne tkyah tnye and gitau la kan? :3 and and, hari ni.. ANNIVERSARY mak ayah aku ke.... okay dh ditolak tambah. 20 tahun~ alhamdulillah :') okay terharu plak. aku nak wish tapi malu la. bab bab nak wish apa semua ni la aku malu sgt sgt~ ye la.. hehe. okay tak tau la nk explain mcm mane. malu siot. aku wish birthday mak ayah kakak aku semua gna facebook tau! haha one thing about me. kalau kwn kwn aku tak malu sgt  nak wish sbb dh biasa. haha pelik kan? org yg aku jumpa 5 hari plak aku biasa tpi org aku jumpa hari hari malu plak xD 

so, dengan kesempatan yang ada.. MAMA.. PAPA... 

k ini gambar 2010. hehe. okay smbg balik. MAMA! PAPA! happy anniversary ke 20 :') fyi, ayah aku first love mak aku. k happily ever after. yg ayah aku pulak. mls la nak comment. hehe mcm anak dia jugak. :p anddddddddddddddddd guess what? aku dan amy nak ke sibu selasa nanti. woahh berdebar rasa ati ni weh. gila seram berdua je naik aeroplane and what so ever lagi la. please doakan kteorang. aku janji aku upload byk gmbr ahahaha walaupun sekadar sibu LOL. 

p/s : i'm happy B)

until the next post. 

sincerely pais. 

de de de de de dewwwwwwww. okay apa ya.

i'm sleepy and bored. guess what i'm gonna do? LOO. kbye

hai ;D

Hellooooowowowowwoowwoahhh.

 Okayy I'm bored. So meh aku cerita sal 'seseorang' yang aku tgh BENCI sekarang. 

Dia ni muda lagi actually.. Tapi ntah knpe mcm tak syg nyawa cari hal dgn aku. Okay pais, sbrrrr. Cerita satu satu dulu. Dari mula smpai klimaks! Hehh k. Aku tau, takde makna nya cerita apa semua ni kan? Tapi aku geram sgt kat diaaaaaa niii. @#$%^&*() *konon tunjuk geram haha*

Budak ni perempuan, junior aku kat sekolah aku dulu. Kan sekarang aku dah habis sekolah so ex-junior la kan? =.=' dulu sebelum aku panas hati sgt. sepupu aku ada cerita pasal dia kat aku. time tu aku rapat dengan dia tau. bila dapat tau dari sepupu aku perangai sebenar dia, hoh rasa bodoh giler rapat dengan dia. aku tak tau nak buat apa time tu. ye la, kan tengah rapat? so tak sampai hati la nak relax je cakap aku tak nak kawan dengan kau lagi kbye kan? so time tu aku buat buat sibuk ar. nampak natural sikit, takkan menimbul rasa kecik ati dia. hehe. lama jugak ah tak lepak dengan dia semenjak tau buruk perangai dia. contact kat facebook je dan dia cakap aku sombong pun aku boleh buat senyum ketawa happy lagi. aku pun tak tau kenapa. gila agaknya aku nih. check suhu la pasni huhu.

Okay, aku ni sekolah st mary. sekolah semua perempuan je tau. berdepan dengan st thomas, sekolah semua lelaki. memang dekat giler wa cakap sama lu. kita tengok luar pun dah boleh nmpk tau kelas 'THOMIAN'. jejantas pulak menghubungkan thomian dan marian. btw, thomian tu panggilan pelajar pelajar st thomas dan st mary pulak la marian kan. duhhh, obviouslyyyy~ * ayat takleh blah haha* so as  i was saying.. aku terjumpa budak ni lepak dpn kedai kat sekolah aku dengan seorang lelaki ni. woahh bro, lelaki tuu. dah la perempuan. so aku tanya la, eh couple ke? dia ckp tak tak. malu malu pulakkkkk. =.=' ye la tu. mulut cakap tidak tapi body kat MESTILAHH~ aiii, budak budak zaman sekarang ni la. advanced sungguh! baru je form one time tu (2011).

nak di jadikan cerita.. aku kenal lelaki tu. ada org penah cakap kat aku dia tu playboy. aku sbg kwn dan kakak yang baik. tlg la smpaikan kat dia. aku just ckp hati hati tau. bkn srh break up terusss. ANDDDD terjadi la satu benda yg menyakitkan hati akuuu! boyfriend dia tiba tiba masuk campur dlm chat. SO! budak tu ckp kat boyfriend dia la? woahh celaka kau ek. kau pilih jantan tu over aku? kalau nak pilih dia tu boleh tapi at least jangan la expose sapa yg cakap kan? aku pun ada muka nak jaga bkn kau sorang je 'YANG ARIF' okay. tapi aku kesian arr kat kau. kau tak tau perangai sebenar budak tu yang syok ayu manja semua tu. tapi takpe.. hidup kau kann. so aku ni ntah sapa sapa, jangan la busybody.

since that day, aku dan budak perempuan tu tak tegur sapa. aku benci tengok muka dia semua la. @#$%^&*() haaa. geram niiii. tapi sebulan dua pastu aku dah okay dah. tapi yang buat aku makin panas hati. dia boleh lagi main angin dengan ex aku! woiii, cari la ex org lain. ex aku buat apa? kata kawan, tpi mana setia ko? gila babs aku tengok dorang wall to wall comment i tell you! bunyi budak tu pulak yang flirting.. bukan ex aku ish bagi malu kaum aku je kau tu perempuan. and aku tau aku cerita pasal ni kat sini pun bagi malu jugak tapi aku peduli apa. ni blog aku. you have no right to tell me what to post. hehehe speaking londonnn!

okay tu je sbb aku benci kat dia hahaha. remeh temeh kan? bkn sebab aku masih suka kat ex aku just aku geram tengok 'setia kawan' dia tu. dah la aku break dengan ex aku tgh mlm dulu, aku skype dengan dia tau. giler aku ngis kat dia, luah apa semua so phm phm la apa yg aku rasa klau dorang contact kan? shesssh. aku tak nak sebut perangai dia sebenar apa. nanti kesian la kat dia kan? teruk org menyumpah dia nanti. kesiannnnn. hahahaha. okay ckp kesian tapi ketawa pulak. dah lah penat aku type semua benda ni HAHAHA *sapa suruh kannn?* :p

until the next post

sincerely pais. 

crazy for TANPAMU by AMIR JAHARI song xD

Selamat Pagi Semua
Dengarkanlah nada
Suara dan irama
Yang menyakitkan telinga
Embun pagi yang lembut
Menyentuh pipi yang gebu

Tanpamu
Ku kan terlewat
Tanpamu
Ku kan sedih
Kerana kau lah penyelamat
Dan akan sentiasa di hati

Saat 7 pagi
Akan ku tersedar
Mungkin kerana kau
Aku dapat merasa

Embun pagi yang lembut
Menyentuh pipi yang gebu
Waktu pagi diriku
Hingga pagiku sambut

Tanpamu
Ku kan terlewat
Tanpamu
Ku kan sedih
Kerana kau lah penyelamat
Dan akan sentiasa di hati

Tanpamu
Ku kan terlewat
Tanpamu
Ku kan sedih
Kerana kau lah penyelamat
Dan akan sentiasa di hati

Tanpamu
Ku kan terlewat
Tanpamu
Ku kan sedih
Kerana kau lah penyelamat
Dan akan sentiasa di hati

Tanpamu
Kerana kau lah penyelamat
Dan akan sentiasa di hati

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what else can i said?

 I thought you can tell me what to do and what i need to know. And that's all you can tell me? Oh. I understand but there's no need to describing me like that! I would never do such things. Thanks to Allah you didn't mentioned my name. Who knows right you might. I was so dissapointed. Until there's a time i felt wanted to un-friend you. But I don't because you become my reminder everyday in Facebook. You remind me when I got so lost in Facebook. Haha. Some reminder you are. I asked you because I got no place to go. I don't even have brother. And my sister? I wouldn't dare to tell her this. And my parents? Like they won't scolded me. My friends? No comment. I feel so random now. I hope it won't last longer. If you can see me now. You'll be sorry. Why? Because I feel sorry for myself too.

sincerely pais.
until the next post.

pouring into words

hey,

 Happy New Year. Yeah, it's an old story but I have been so busy so that's why I didn't have time for my blog. I wanted to tell you guys. Last night someone asked me to be his girl. I said yes. But suddenly I don't feel better. Yet, I'm afraid. I doesn't want to be ended up like before. I'm afraid he will left me like HO. I wanted to tell him this but I'm too scared. I guess just let it be like that. 

 I decided not to tell him actually how is it my life now. Maybe he won't read this. But who cares anyway? All I wanna do is ran away far from my home. I hate my life here. I hate it because they gave me so much bad memories since I was a little kid. I don't asked much. I just wanna be free. I'm only knew what is free when at school. That's why I love my friends more than my own family. But lets see, all my friends is gone. Well, not all of them. The one who is with me through thick and thin all this time. AAR, HAH, JH and NS plus ADA. Also, SBU and NA and DHAJ. 

 I didn't want to put any more problem towards Bio Matrah anymore. He also have a life right? If i don't have one, I just have to get one all by myself. Actually, Abe. I'm alone all this time. I wanna be with someone. But all of you have a life and doesn't have a time for me. Anyway, thanks you all. If you guys didn't show up long time ago in my life. Maybe I would have died a long time ago. I live because of you guys. Also I didn't forget Marsha Chacha a.k.a Marsha Griselda. Unfortunately, she forgotten all about me. But it's fine. Like I don't used to live alone. 

 The people I knew that the most lonely in this planet is me. When everyone's go out with their friends. I just look out from my window. When everyone's hanging out with their families. Same thing, just look out from my window. When everyone's had a problem, they find me and I help them. It's like I'm a shadow in the darkest place. When someone find it then it would be taken out from the darkest place. Shadow follows bodies. That's me, what everyone asked me to do, i would. In all my life, I never ever wanted to be something than to be the shadows. 

 I guess I was fate to be shadows. Until the next post.

sincerely pais.